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[Day 14] My Story

My story

Before I share a bit about how I came to do what I do and more importantly be who I am, I want to say this (it’s something I have to remind myself of often).

Your story matters.

And it is of equal importance to share your story in a way that feels good to you. If your intention in sharing your experiences is to get others to feel sorry for you, to make yourself sound better than other people or to sustain being a victim, look at that. Be honest with yourself and get crystal clear about your intentions.

I say this because the stories we tell ourselves become our reality. And if we continue to repeat the ones that make us feel negative emotion, we will continue to repeat the same things. Maybe not in the same way, but they will manifest in some form.

So, if you feel good when you’re telling it and if you know in your heart it will help other people, then share it.

End preach.

My intention in sharing my story is to help teens and parents alike know first and foremost, they are not alone. Secondly, that it doesn’t last forever. And third, because I know the route I went could have been a lot shorter had I known what I know now.

Legal disclaimer: The information provided below is not intended to replace the medical advice of a qualified health care professional or to be used as therapy. Carrie Leigh Sandoval assumes no responsibility for the results generated.

So when I was a teenager, I was a total mess. I was having panic attacks multiple times a day, using drugs, not eating and would hurt myself in any way I could – namely cutting myself with whatever I could find.

Why? Because it was the only thing that brought me relief, the only coping technique I had.

I felt alone, afraid and responsible for all the crap going on in my house. In a place where I felt so much and didn’t have a voice or a place to express my pain, cutting was the only way I could communicate how bad I was hurting and what the constant fighting and being put in the middle of it was doing to me.

I was hospitalized, medicated, saw numerous doctors, psychiatrists, therapists, you name it. And while I am grateful these things exist and they did temporarily stabilize me, I continued to repeat the same unhealthy habits and patterns – never fully healing or learning positive coping strategies.

Everywhere I went, these labels defined me. I felt insane. Broken. Like I needed to be fixed. But all I truly wanted was to feel like a human being.

To be seen. Heard. Loved and respected for being myself, not just when I was being who everyone else needed me to be.

There was a whole lot of pressure on me to be the perfect daughter so everyone else would be okay. But it wasn’t until I started to accept myself and take my healing into my own hands that everything began to change.

It took me years and years of struggle and self-study to understand that I wasn’t broken or insane. I was just a young girl having a normal response to really insane circumstances.

Committing to showing up for myself is something I have to practice every day, but I’ve now been sober for over 5 years, haven’t cut myself in close to 6 and am no longer taking prescription medications.

I have a beautiful family, a job I love, but most importantly I no longer feel like there is something inherently wrong with who I am.

Having a mentor who got me and didn’t try to fix me inspired me to do this work.

I can’t tell you how badly I wanted someone to just say, “Hey, you’re not crazy. You’re alright. Everything is going to be alright.”

I love that I now get to share this experience and understanding with other young people, especially the girls, who feel the same way I felt.

And I love being able to help parents stop blaming themselves because really it’s not their fault.

Knowing these experiences can help others unlock their courage, strength and power of choice, gives me hope (and puts a smile on my face).

We are all here for a reason and you never know who you might help or the impact you’ll have by sharing your story.

There’s a lot more to mine, but this is all I’m going to share today. Now I want to hear from you.

What story do you share that reminds you of how amazing you are? Or what story keeps you going when you’re feeling low and need to be inspired? Leave me a comment below.

Leeza Robertson
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Your Story and Why Others Need It by Leeza Robertson

Leeza Robertson

This is a guest post by the amazing and talented Leeza Robertson! I had the honor and joy of taking Leeza’s “Write Your Story Your Way” workshop which resulted in me finishing my book, Journals Have Feelings Too.

Her guidance and practical system allowed me to finish my book with ease. Please enjoy this beautiful post and be sure to go here to learn more.

Have you ever wondered why you have come to walk the path you are on?

Do you ever sit and wonder why your life has taken the twist and turns it has?

I believe we come here to teach by example. That every wrong turn, every bump, every tragedy and every victory is not just for our benefit but for those around us as well. Let’s face it, wouldn’t you want to get advice from someone who has lived through what you have rather then from someone who has no clue how to connect to your experience?

Think about the books you read, the songs you listen to the shows you watch. They all have a connection to your journey. They all will either be sharing in your experience or giving you ways out of it. No matter how hard we try we can never escape the lesson that is our own life. And that is why your story is so important.

Everything you go through and experience will resonate with someone else. Your story will have meaning and impact to those who have come to travel a similar path. This is why others need to hear your story, read your story and share in your story.

When I was going through art school one of my lecturers told us that art moves people, but it only matters if it moves one person. That if you can touch the soul of one person your art has done all it was meant to come into the world to do. I have carried those words into everything I have done and continue to do.

Your story is the same as a piece of art. It does not have to change the whole world, sometimes the whole world is not the point. Sometimes it is merely to be the light in one other persons darkness. Sometimes it is just to change the world inside of someone else. That is the true power of what you have to offer the world with your writing.

So the next time you find yourself going through a bad day, or even a fantastic day, remember that someone somewhere is waiting for you to share your story and change their world.

Leeza Robertson is a best selling author, speaker and book coach. She runs writing retreats and author programs to help new and aspiring authors go from idea to book to published author. Leeza is also the host of the largest FREE online event for new authors. Find out more at http://leezarobertson.com/jan/

A raw, real morning rant by Carrie Leigh Sandoval
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A Raw, REAL, Unedited Morning Rant + Two Journaling Prompts

A raw, real morning rant by Carrie Leigh Sandoval

This morning (actually yesterday morning), I decided to do some free writing journaling. Or is it free-writing?

And by decided I mean I woke up and the words started pouring out of me.

That hadn’t happened in a while and I was really grateful it did.

I love journaling prompts, but sometimes I just need to write, you know?

Here goes my rant (sloppily hand-written in my journal and lovingly transferred to the blog for your reading pleasure):

I woke up from strange dreams of different planets and things I’d never seen. I woke up with these words in my mind:

“The world around me is in chaos, but I am at peace.”

I’ve been writing “how to” articles and all about the keys to this and that, but those mean nothing if you can’t connect with me.

I don’t want to be another person in your life who talks at you. I don’t want to be someone who you feel less than or better than.

I want us to be equals.

I don’t want to feel like I have to follow all the rules to be accepted.

And I don’t want “being accepted” to be the goal of anything. For anyone.

I don’t want censorship to dictate my way of speaking.

I don’t want to be a robot.

I don’t want to be perfect.

I just want to be me.

The me that knows I’m still in tact when I make mistakes.

The me that doesn’t follow all the rules.

The me that doesn’t strive to fit in.

The goal of life is not to blend in, it’s to stand out.

It’s to become more of who we are, not anyone else.

This is how I feel right now.

This is who I am right now.

This is my truth RIGHT NOW.

And I want to know yours.

I want to hear it.

I want to read it.

And I know there’s a part of you saying, “no you don’t.”

“No one cares about me.”

“I’m not that important.”

But you are important.

You do matter.

Your words, your actions, but most importantly your way of being – matters.

Despite your circumstances, your diagnoses, your past, whatever it may be. Despite whatever voice plays in your mind like a broken record.

I wish I could convey this so you’d never forget it.

You are worthy of ALL the GOOD this world has to offer.

You are worthy of connection to the highest part of you.

You are worthy of connection to other people.

You are enough.

And as I write this, I cry because I feel it too.

I don’t think you need any more “tips” or advice.

I have this feeling all you really need to know is, you’re not alone.

You’re not alone.

 

 

Feel like journaling today? Here are two journaling prompts to get you started.

What do I need to express today?

What do I want to experience more of in my life?

Your story matters
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Your Story Matters (Affirmation)

Your story matters. It’s true.

And more importantly, it deserves to be told.

Don’t deny any part of your past.

It has made you who you are.

And you are wonderful just as you are.

Your story matters