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[Day 5] Bucket Lists

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Today is Day 5 of the 30 Day Magic Up Your Blog Challenge <— click to join.

My two topic choices are:

1) What’s on your bucket list? What are you absolute “Must Do’s” in this lifetime?

OR

2) What’s on your Vision Board?

Since I’ve done a post on vision boards, I’ve decided to choose the bucket list.

(To see my vision board and learn how to make your own go here)

But before I get into this post, I want to talk about how yesterday’s post impacted me and the miscellaneous thoughts in my head right now.

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Because I know if I don’t I’ll be doing the same thing I often do and…

Doing the same thing = getting the same results

Yesterday I talked about my greatest accomplishment. I LOVED writing this post, I loved how many people commented on and shared it and I loved reading it again after the fact.

It was really good.

And yet, those nagging thoughts I exposed in the post came up even stronger.

“It wasn’t that good.”
“Don’t get too confident.”
“You can’t write that well all the time.”

Tunnel vision.

And then my mind proceeded to bring up all the times it thinks I’ve failed and all the people who are doing what I do, but are doing it so much better.

So I frantically:
Attempted to shake it out
Write it out
Get into the feeling
Breathe it out
Eft?!?

Then I paused and asked,
“What is really going to help me?”

This part of me wants to be seen and loved.

That’s it.

I can help her be seen by sharing this publicly (rather than hiding my deepest and most vulnerable thoughts and feelings in my journal [what I’ve always done]).

Even though right now she’s screaming.

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I can quietly repeat “I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. You’re safe. I love you.”

I can breathe.

And I can start writing my bucket list.

I haven’t written one of these in a long time, but I went back not too long ago to look at an old one and was so excited to see how many things I could cross off the list.

Some of those included:

  • Having a non-traditional wedding
  • Writing a book
  • Quitting drugs

But, it’s time to make a new one. Plus, it’ll be fun to come back here later and cross them out as I go.

I will…

Travel to

  • Europe (Stonehenge please)
  • Egypt
  • Ireland
  • Northern California to see the giant sequoias (this is happening at the end of the month [pictures to come])
  • Legoland again
  • Sacred places
  • All the oceans

Business

  • Publish my journals
  • Write another book

Life

  • Go to an opera
  • Have regular adventures with my family
  • Make music
  • Make enough money to live comfortably and ensure all of our needs are met
  • Make art – paint, draw, crafts
  • Buy whatever food I want without worrying how much it costs
  • Dine out often
  • Allow myself to be seen and heard – even when I’m not being “perfect”
  • See a tornado in real life
  • Get a cat
  • Milk a goat?

Material Things (because we are living in a material world…)

  • Get equipment to make music
  • Get a new macbook air
  • Get an imac
  • Buy a video game system (I’m all about the love, but sometimes I just wanna fight…)
  • Buy a new home – one with a fireplace, hardwood floors, 3 bed, 2 bath, safe location, good vibes
  • Buy a new car with manual transmission (don’t know what kind yet, but I miss driving stick)
  • Buy cute furniture and home decor (etsy?)

My Body

  • Chop off all my hair (pixie cut!)
  • Wear vintage clothes
  • Find an amazing holistic doctor in Oregon
  • Weekly massages
  • Weekly acupuncture
  • Mommy retreats

Spirituality

  • Go to church because I want to not because I think I have to
  • Find my own way to practice faith

Family

  • Have another baby
  • Have a happy marriage – honest, open, loving, accepting, communicating
  • Learn with and from my family
  • Honor one another – by giving compliments, random gifts, calling just to say “I love you”

I’ll continue adding to this as things come to mind and crossing things out I’ve done, but now I want to hear from you.

What’s on your bucket list? What’s the biggest thing you wish to be or do or have in this life? Leave me a comment below.

While writing this post, I found this site with a bucket list for teens. Check it out.

14 replies
  1. Harriet Stack says:

    Wow that’s some list! I think I might feel overwhelmed if I made one like that, but the great thing is to find what works for us, isn’t it? I challenged myself to do 50 interesting/new/important things during 2012 to mark my 50th birthday and it turned out to be a transformational experience. Book is on the way! I always insisted that it wasn’t a bucket list though, because I didn’t like the idea of having to get everything done before a certain time, even if that was the end of my life. I like to set intentions, let go of them and then be curious about whether they will materialise or not, and wonder what that means later on. I guess the biggest thing I have ever done is to be sober 25 years (to date) and the biggest thing I intend to do is to stay that way for the rest of my life. That gives me a sense of perspective that I expect you will identify with. Thanks for a thought provoking post 🙂

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    • Carrie Leigh Sandoval says:

      Thanks Harriet! That is so cool about the 50 new things for your 50th year of life. Please share the book with me when it’s done. I agree that the letting go part is necessary because there might be something I’m not even seeing that could totally wow me. Congrats on being sober for 25 years. That is so awesome and inspiring!

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  2. Kama says:

    Yes Breathe! You are inspiring many and that is a good thing. Wow that is some list. Looks like your life is going to be full of adventure 🙂

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  3. Andrea Wisden says:

    Wow! That’s some list! I love the honest share in your post here. You’ve already achieved so much. Incidentally, Stonehenge is awesome, I used to live just around the corner. WHEN you come over to England, go and see Avebury too, which is even better than Stonehenge, and also some of the sacred sites in Ireland and Cornwall. You’ll love it! Have fun working your way through your list! Andrea

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  4. Renee Leverington says:

    I can certainly relate to having those feeling about something I create not being that good, I really suck at getting compliments too!

    Awesome bucket lists, mine seems a bit feeble in comparison 🙂

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  5. Clarissa Wilson says:

    Wow! That list is amazing! I can’t find the list I wrote a few years ago, so I’m starting from scratch with mine. My biggest item is to have a 6 figure month before 2015 is over. I love helping others and I’m really loving this challenge and sharing with everyone! xxx

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  6. Linda says:

    WOW! Love you, love your voice. You must be a great success with the teens!
    I wish you all on your list and more. It’s a great list, and that comes from someone who detests bucket lists!
    Peace and Much Love,
    Linda

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